pondering, thinking,

Today i move into the new apartment that I, Megan, Adriana, and Danny all share. Adriana is a bit cranky these days and now Danny and Adriana are lying and sleeping on the same bed next to mine. i wonder why they did that. I know that God you have prepared a place for me to dwell, and it's totally your plan that Adriana found another roomate to live in the spring semester, but not me. At one point i was pretty frustrated because i dont know where i am living and staying after i come back from semester at sea. God where you are leading me? what you want me to see? my heart seeks after and chases after you. I need you more and more each day.

Going Home

So after a couple months of thinking and battling going home or not going home, finally i bought the ticket home on July 12 , 2011. but i will be going home for three weeks only. 
I am excited to go home to see my parents, see grandma, see friends. and i am excited to see what God has prepared for me in this summer. 


I am about to move into the apartment tomorrow. Adriana has been pretty cranky lately. and the whole housing situation has been driving me crazy. i dont know, my heart has been in the turmoil lately and deep inside my heart i always have this yearning and desire to be close to someone who will be there understanding what i am trying to say or think . 


I am now listening to Strings by Misty Edwards. this song has always been stirring my heart and dig to the deepest area of my heart core. Everytime when i run up to the horsebarn hill, laying down over there. my heart has thousands of thoughts. i have peace yet uncertainty within me. sometimes i just cry out to God: Now what God? what's the deal? what's the purpose of my life? why?


sometimes i like my life but sometimes i really hate it. I am not satisfy with my present knowledge of God. I feel like I do not know enough people. I feel like God does not treasure me as much as others. Why am I chinese? Why am I not european, americans whom they have advantage over many things and their culture can enjoy life? ]


What is God's favor? i do not understand. Why some people were born with high social status, good family background, endless money while some were born with birth defects, low income family? I need to encounter you God. I want more of you. i need you. shout it out to me. you are an audible voice? a still voice? i dont know. Sometimes you frustrate me God. Who are you? your multi-identity frustrates and confuses me. So you are my friend, my savior, my king, what's the deal? there is an interrole conflict!!!

A heart for nations

I pray for China today that God will raise up a generation, a government, a army in China that is worthy of His grace and sacrifice. I pray that i would be able to go back to HK this summer and i would be able to bless this rising nation.

I pray that this Chinese generation would be filled with one holy desire and one holy passion. People today would no longer only working for the sake of money but for the sake of Christ. May God brings redemption and conviction to Chinese people, government, military structure,

China, now is your time. Shine through and breakthrough!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H77pZGzUUZI

http://abcnews.go.com/WN/China/china-pushes-english-language/story?id=12154435&sms_ss=facebook&at_xt=4dd29ff09e6463ab%2C0

Finals week!

This is the final week! can't believe it flies by so fast!


yea i need to enjoy youth as much as i can!!! God hope that you would be help me to crack down these finals in order to glorify you!!!i pray that i would be able to get the dept of dining service job and everything would work out just fine! 


thanks God for listening my prayers today that i was able to do well in COMM 3100 persuasion exam. Amen! prayers work!