Feburary 2011

Time flies and now is Feburary already. Recently I am having one of the most crazy week ever, have been in the library for so many days already. Five days in a row, at least 5 hours a day. Sometimes i wonder if i can sustain that long. I just had two exams today, hoping they would turn well. I will have one paper due tomorrow. and one more exam on Friday, CRAZY!!!! 

There have been so much happening that i really do not know where to pen, First is thea stops praying with me, which really frustrate me in a way. Sometimes i really all by myself during my walk with him, while seeing many of my friends seem to get connected to some spiritual leaders, important people, sometimes just made me wonder and anxious what role do i play and how can i fit into His big picture. 

Sometimes i wonder if God is even fair to me, even though i always learn of His justice and mercy and righteousness and whatsoever. But God can you direct my way? Friendship has been on my mind often lately, i do not know who is my friend or which friend will stay long, the friend that i used to be friend with seems to be very distant and I am not sure if I should continue to be friend with them. Sometimes i really cannot stand some people who would like to know more people just because they want to connect to people or whatsoever. Sometimes i am so confused, i am perplexed, i do NOT understand. 

Does God favor? Does God choose people and anoint especially? how about the kids in South Africa? How about other people? why i am always the one who perserve and it seems that no one goes with me and i am all alone?